i hate this guy. wip will write more insanity later. if you saw this before i edited it, no u did not

here's a guestbook if ya wanna send hate or plug yer shit or smth

7/21/24 ☆ hi... srs lovemail time LOL hai i love you so much and i miss you more than anything we're in call but we're not speaking. also woah! i meet you in exactly a month! i'm actually shitting my pants i'm so excited and nervous i can't wait to actually hold you.... and shower with you..... and feed you....... and wuegrhhfhfh im losing mh mind thinkijg about everything we couldndo also skk + gendice cosplay?!?! INSANE!!! and its gonna be my first con... with you..... sorry im rambling i love you so mych in so lucky i got so so os lucky nobody else could deal with me the way you do i'm so in love..... you make me so happy i cant even begin to describe it thank you for dealinf with me so muvh and for being around me so much and for Staying. you're my everything i wouldn't know what to do with myself without you

adonis.... i don't even know where to start with this guy... i regret being mean to him during first year because after spending so much time with him he's truly the sweetest boy i've ever met. i love him so much it physically makes me sick sometimes!!! he's so nice and gentle and caring and i don't know what i'd do without him. it's so so so nice to spend so much time with him since our seniors are usually off doing stupid stuff. we've been dating for a little over a year now... just the thought of that makes me all giddy and happy.... i love him so much and nobody else will ever come close to feeling the same about him as i do. my dove, my prince, my darling, my beloved ♡

7/21/24 ☆ im so in love with him. i've been thinking about him nonstop recently and it's starting to drive me crazy. i miss the way he used to wrap his arms around me and press his face into my back/shoulder. i miss laying on the practice room floors after us two finished school. i miss doing school performances with him. i love him so much he's so sweet and genuinely one of the best people i've ever met, i wouldn't trade him for anything in the world. i'm so lucky to have him and i'm so lucky he's all ours. he's so special to me... i miss my angel dearly.

this ugly son of a bitch. i genuinely hate him and don't know how he's stayed around this long. i wish i could've disposed of his bitchass in first year because im sure my life would be 100% better without his stupid ass. unfortunately i'm madly in love with this blond piece of shit so like we've also been dating for a little over a year now. i guess i'm lucky to have him even if he gets on my nerves all the fucking time.

7/21/24 ☆ unfortunately this guy is growing on me. i miss him. so much. i've been thinking about him a whole lot. i miss when he'd randomly pick me up from school or practice or the dorms and drag me to a cafe or a restaurant... it used to annoy the hell out of me but honestly i miss it so much. i miss him trying to scare me backstage and i miss the way he smells fresh and like the ocean at the same time... i miss him so much i can't believe we've been together this long im so lucky for us to have him... flirty bastard ♡

7/27/25 ♰ stupid fucking idiot. i hate this guy but i hate the fact that he's not here with me even more. i miss him so much. UGH. i miss his stupid smile and the teasing lilt he always had in his voice and the way he'd always find a way to make some sort of contact with me and i miss the way the small of back fit so perfectly in my hand and UGH I HATE HIM. COME HOME.